I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t scared. Or lonely. I’d also be lying if I said that I didn’t cry on the first day. Because I did.
The fact that I was all alone really hit me when I had to try and find my roommates. I didn’t know who I was with, who I was looking for, or who to even ask for help. It actually ended up being a pretty big mix up and instead of rooming with girls from the U of M, I am in a room with three people from Massachusetts. I hated myself for crying. I get this lump in my throat that makes it impossible for me to talk without bursting into tears. It was so embarrassing. And what’s worse was that I had no one to turn to. Just me. In Florida. I didn’t even get to see the ocean that day because of how late we got to our hotel. Everyone from Cru’s U of M was so nice and friendly to me but I was just so overwhelmed with everything and feeling very small.
The next morning I woke up to the ocean.
Right outside of my hotel balcony. It was a brand new day. A brand new start. I also woke up to a text from my brother Myron. That little text meant more to me then he will ever know. He sent a verse from Joshua. It says this:
No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life. Just as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you or forsake you. Joshua 1:5
I went out to the beach that morning just to think, pray, and look at the gorgeous ocean. A couple minutes later, a girl named Emily, who I had met before, ran up to me and we started talking. Soon after, we were in the ocean waves trying to grab seashells and find starfish.
I know that everything is going to be okay. I know that there is a reason I am here. I don’t know the reason, but God does. I’m still scared and I’m still lonely at times. But there is that word again, perseverance. I just have to trust in God and his plan, as scary as that may be. God was with Moses and he will be will me. Always.