I never do that.
Go up to the front of the church to get prayed for. But I needed to this Friday.
The very short reason why is I’ve been feeling really empty.
The women praying for me kept saying delight, delight, delight. In all of her sentences.
Every other
word
I heard,
delight.
And each time a tear slipped out of my closed eyelids.
I didn’t know that.
I did.
But I didn’t.
God DELIGHTS in me.
In that moment He was delighting in me. The whole time I was living my little life and doing my (wayyy) overdue laundry, He was delighting in me. And I didn’t even know. I didn’t have to do a thing. So there I was standing there.
Sobbing.
The man who also had his hand on me said delight so frequently my eyes became faucets without the handles installed.
But he also said this, “I think you know He does, Molly. Deep down, you know, you’ve known, that He delights in you.” Maybe this doesn’t really make sense, but my whole life has been crammed with chapters of knowing and not knowing on the same page.
Knowing and not knowing something beautiful at the same time
because it’s so much easier for my eyes to get adjusted to the ugly things
about anything.
but especially in the mirror
and then that becomes all I know.
Delight doesn't feel like a word that should be spoken in my direction.
And to hear it said cuts really deep through the layers of every lie I’ve let the devil dare to tell me.
I don’t deserve it.
I don’t know how God does it,
But I ‘know’ now.
And I don’t want to know anything else anymore.
“He rescued me because he delights in me.”
Psalms 18:19
(Thank you @thefiresidephotography for these photos. I kinda throw-up over them in Photoshop but these help me see beauty in me so thank you, thank you).
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Molly,
This is beautiful. Beauty from ashes!! I love how the Lord works and turns out darkness into light.
To underscore what you were saying, the Lord recently showed me that when he talks to Jacob (Isaiah is my favorite book of the Bible) he is talking to his individual son or daughter, and when he addresses Israel, he is talking to his people. In our case, the collective Body of Christ.
Jests reflects this passage in Luke l0:20 — our joy is in being HIS! (That is what I just wrote on my hand today: HIS!)
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You amaze me, and then I realize it truly is the Holy Spirit speaking through you…it’s because of your authentic, one-on-one relationship with God. Not that age matters really, but I am 60 years old & totally astounded by what you say, how it ministers to me, and resonates with me. It blows my mind sometimes. God uses you more than you can possibly know! I also had similar issues in my life…I am so glad you openly talk about them as I kept them secret. I pray you will truly be able see the incredibly whole and complete person you are with God’s love & direction in your life. I really had to chuckle because you said you hadn’t been reading the Bible & then the Holy Spirit gave you this beautiful insight. Adele
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